What is the problem? What do I lack that you so desperately need? Why do you have to escape from everything? You use work to escape from home and me. You use home as an escape from work. Do you know how to be present at all? I just don't get it. I must be so closed minded to whatever you are looking for that I can't seem to be any of what you want or need. Am I just not worth the effort? Cause I can go. I can give up, if that is what you want. But I cannot do this over and over and over and over and over again for the rest of my life.